Happy s day

Well i so so excited to make this post today, its hard to believe it has been five years ago i had my stroke.

I almost think that my stroke birthday means more to me than my real birthday, because of the things i have been able to accomplish. I am grateful for the prayers i received as i was going through this trial i know that they were answered and i am doing good today because of my Heavenly Father has heard those prayers.

               

* Nurses and Doctor visits
* Hours and Hours of cat scans
*Knowing what i want to say but not really being able to communicate
* Spinal taps are painful (I think it is the most pain i have ever gone through)
 * Bright lights hurt my brain
* Not knowing if this was a cancerous tumor was stressful
* The doctor saying if they had to do surgery, i wouldn't walk without a walker
* Listening to my mom talk on the phone ha ha.
* Seeing Nicole stressed out hurt my heart                                                                                                   

I needed people to celebrate the triumphs i made everyday because my successes, no matter how small, inspire me.

 *I was bound and determined to walk out of the hospital by myself on the release date. The walk from my room to the car took all i had.
* I got tired a lot doing small things
* I heard the doctors say, "If you don't have your abilities back by one year after your stroke, then you won't get them back!" Believe me, this is not true.

Eventually i was like a toddler wanting to go out and explore

* I remember paying for my gas at the gas station and someone behind me in a hurry saying "what are you retarded, hurry" that moment is forever etched in my mind and makes me want to be a better person.
* I remember all the lawn care companies in town with the help of my brother Shawn pitched in to help me so i wouldn't loose my lawn care business. I will be forever in debt to them.

I have read a small book called "My Stroke of Insight"   It is about a lady who had a stroke and really captured the whole experience in writing. It is a really inspiring book i cried through the whole thing because her stroke was very similar to mine and brought back many memories. I would highly recommend it so in the future if someone close to you has a stroke you will understand them more and know what they are going through.


I may not be in total control of what happens to my life, but i certainly am in control of how i choose to preceive my experience.